Life's a funny old thing

when i was younger.. I was a bit wild.
I thought I would be dead by the time I was 30.
I didnt want a wife, a house, or to save money for my future cuz I wasnt going to have one.
I took more drugs, rode my motorcycle like a madman. Partied hard and all that stupid stuff.
I didnt care, I wasnt going to be around after 30.

On my 30th birthday I found myself sitting on my bed with a knife, crying, and about to cut my wrists when my phone rang. It was a call from a friend I had chatted with on IRC. She called to tell me that it was all going to be ok. Dont do anything silly and when i woke up in the morning I'd wonder what all the fuss was about.

For some reason what she said calmed me. She was really sweet, and caring and I didnt do anything.

One year later I was married.
Two years after my wife and I bought a house.
I'm now 38, I have a good job, a lovely wife, a dog, a cat, 2 cars, a canoe, a house, and most importantly i have the most precious thing in the world. My life.

Thanks Paris. You will always have a special place in my heart.

The Election Debate, Debate.

Perhaps I see things too simplisitically. Don Brash looked like a fool because he doesnt think it was "the right thing" to yell at and verbally attack Prime Minister Helen Clark in a debate. While she was doing it to him.

Well.

Yeah, he's right.

HOWEVER... He may lose the election because of it. Of course, yelling he probably didnt have any choice in because of the noise, so thats ok. But he STILL could have made his points and looked far less foolish without "attacking" her. Honestly. There is more than 2 ways to skin a cat.

On another note. I should go to Church on Sunday. Its weird, after so many years of going2x every Sunday and so forth, I really have no motivation. Possibly because I am having trouble finding somewhere that feels "homely". I feel like I am struggling Spiritually and I'm fairly sure lack of Church is why. I read the bible and pray still - but there's something about Church. I like how the Psalmist says:

Ps 73:15 If I had said, "I will talk on in this way," I would have been untrue to the circle of your children. 16 But when I thought how to understand this, it seemed to me a wearisome task, 17 until I went into the sanctuary of God; then I perceived their end. 18 Truly you set them in slippery places; you make them fall to ruin. 19 How they are destroyed in a moment, swept away utterly by terrors! 20 They are like a dream when one awakes; on awaking you despise their phantoms

After going into the sanctuary, the Psalmist sees the world differently. He goes on to recount his blessings as one of the chosen, as compared to the fate of the wicked. They might enjoy life now, for awhile, but they ultimately have nothing. The key thing is the Sanctuary. That is where one goes to pray, and to worship, and to hang out with other believers. It is there that our perspective is changed.

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